I am moving back home.
To my hometown in Connecticut.
Who would have thought that I would be saying that? I never thought I would.
I have lived in New York City for 7 years. Straight out of college, everything lined up for me to move here, and I was so excited to move to the big city. I was a musical theatre major in college and made regular trips to New York City to see broadway shows. My boyfriend and I, at the time, saw this as THE big dream. We would move to the city. I would become an actress, and he would be a stage manager, and we would live in a small apartment living off ramen and explore everything this city has to offer. A year after we broke up, I was the one that moved to NYC. And I have to say, that felt good.
I have so much to be thankful for. I have lived some of my worst days and some of my best days in the city. It has changed me in ways that living in my small town in Connecticut wouldn't. It gave me many experiences I would not have dreamed of.
I aim to move back in 6 months, on April 1st. I am moving with intention. This gives me the focus to know that moving back home is not a bad thing. It will bring me closer to my goals and build a better relationship with my family. It's realignment.
My lease at the place I am subletting is up on October 1st, and I decided this is the best next step for me. I want to live on my own but currently do not have the financials for it. I don't have a partner at the moment. My job is flexible, letting me WFH for the next six months, and I am so grateful for that. My friends are so supportive, and I plan to visit as often as possible. A couple of them are planning to visit me in my hometown (my heart is filled with joy). It's going into the holiday season, and I would like to be able to spend an extended period with my family. I haven't been around them for more than a long weekend since high school. Everything just makes sense.
Moving back home is going to be an adjustment for sure. I haven't been home for longer than a long weekend for the past 7 years. And before that, I was in college for 5 years. So I would be home for 2 1/2 months for summer and winter break. I am lucky that my house is technically a 2 apartment home. I just need to find out how to clean out both rooms I want to use. I also spoke with my mom about how big this is for me. It's a huge adjustment. So we will talk about expectations and boundaries when I get home.
What I hope to get out of this move:
5K savings (to be used to move out come April)
5K debt payoff (raise that credit score, boo)
A moment to just breathe from the chaos that was my ex of 2 1/2 years
Becoming healthier mentally and physically since I will not have to worry about rent or living with a roommate
Focus on building ILWML to where I want it to be
Building a better relationship with my family
Healing anything that I need to while I am at home
Thank you so much, babes, for your support in this community. ILWML will continue with its regular Monday Check-Ins, Wednesday Blog Post, and Wednesday 9:30pm Meditation. Hopefully, with me having less stress, you will see more content on all social media to help inspire you! Events will still be held! October will be moved to a virtual event, and I will be making a trip in November for an in-person event in NYC.
Sending you so much love and the power to make the right decision for you.